Just woke up with a bloody splitting headache and I can’t barely walk now due to the injuries sustain in Silat.Today, sparring were involve and we have to split into two groups each at 10. We were playing King which means that someone that is chosen (The King) would continuously spar with each member for and I was chosen as the King.

Felt reluctant to give my my full force when I was sparring with some of the girls, and i was pull by the collar by Haikal telling me to give my full force. Turning point for me was when he shouted at me saying you want them to get hurt and feel the pain now and learn or later when we are in the competition where they will lose. Still, i felt guilty seeing the pain on their faces and kept apologising to them. Argghh, I still feel its not right.

Get home, get nagged by my mother seeing the state I am. Both my arm are bruising which look like love bites, My feet are swollen, i cant bent my toe but the best part when my mother saw my right shin. It was swollen shape like a golf ball.

Lets pray i will recover fast and cant wait for Wednesday!